Last Week was one of those weeks where the universe slams you in the face and says no, you really can not have everything you've been asking for, but thanks for showing up, and hey before you go, let's see a smile. And dammit I refused to smile. So, I did what all well-adjusted humans do and shut myself off from the world for 10 days. Not completely. I DID have to travel to the gas station for my daily diet Mountain Dew.
Thank you so much for all of your concerns, for all of your worries, for all of your pep talks, but you know what ?? Sometimes it's good to take time and just sit with one's self. And when the sitting is complete, one's self may even be able to stand a wee bit taller. Me, in this case. It's funny that I can write that, and within the same minute be pondering how my backyard can perpetually smell like dog piss. Amazing.
None of my funk has to do with Wisconsin, mean people (well in a way, doesn't it always?), or anything of that nature. I can't write directly about the cause here yet, but have written a few posts in the past week that I promise to publish at an appropriate time. In fact, I'm even willing to give you a little tidbit as long as you don't ask too many questions. Deal?
I adore my husband. I think he is is one of the smartest, most wonderful people to walk this earth and I have a nerve to walk right into all of those offices and pop them one. To scream at the top of my lungs at them, to then walk down to the parking garage and pour sugar into their gas tanks (I've heard this is a killer) and as if that wasn't enough, slash all of their tires. I'm not a violent person, but in two years, I've only seen a look of dread on my husband's face 5 times, and those were the past 5 days. And I will lay the law down for the ones I love.
There you have it. Well a bit of it. There is so much more I long to tell you, to vent with rage to you, but alas I can't. The only thing I can say isthank god I popped for sheets with a high thread-count - they made for a much more comfortable week.



well there you go - no wonder you need some time and clear headspace .... take as long as you need.
Go see www.wifeinthenorth.com and see how she deals with life's detractors - will make you smile xoxoxoxoxoxle
Posted by: Leanne | September 16, 2008 at 11:16 PM
Oh, Miss Sarah, I'm so sorry. Feel the rage for now and when it subsides, we'll be here if and when you're ready to vent. If there's anything at all I can do to help, let me know.
Posted by: Mel | September 17, 2008 at 02:44 PM
Uh, Sarah, get some body work done. Jess too.
Posted by: Nicole | September 18, 2008 at 12:46 PM
i've definitely had fantasies about putting sugar in someone's gas tank.
Posted by: jenx67 | September 18, 2008 at 02:33 PM
I love reading your blog. Sorry you had such a bad week, but it made for good reading, lol. Hope things are better in your part of the world.
Posted by: Julie | September 23, 2008 at 06:16 PM